oH-kay. i'm in school because...i need my class cards. i'm terrified i'll get thrown out of my *ahem* beloved alma mater.
unlikely, you say? GOD. i only pray you're right.
so what has happened to me lately? that would be a good question if i actually had an answer. does the phrase 'great extremes' ring a bell? my mood swings are acting up...and it's not pretty. i know how it feels to go crazy. i know that feeling all too well. and now, i also know how it feels to want to die.
it came to a point i was actually planning it out....figuring out who to write letters to, what to write and all that...you'll never guess what stopped me.
it was the silliest thing, really.
sis, i didn't want to ruin your debut.
i reach new lows everyday.
really. i do.
hmm...just went to lina's blog. naunahan ako. 'unwell' by matchbox 20 was supposed to be my theme song. >< keyword being supposed. ohhhh dear. i feel vaguely sick.
there something that bothers me.
everyone overestimates me.
i'm not perfect, guys.
everyone thinks that i'm this person who knows exactly what to say and when to say it. or i'm someone who knows exactly what she wants, who can read people like a book and ...well...in short, they think i'm someone who knows how to handle...everything.
i'm not as strong as i seem, or even as strong as i pretend to be.
inside i'm scared and crying.
and the thing is, i don't even KNOW what i'm looking for. but i know i need it now. soon.
i know i'm not making sense. but right now nothing does.
i'm lost and completely hopeless and as far as i'm concerned, i. want. OUT!
i want out of this so-called life.
What Planet Are You From?
this quiz was made by The Autist Formerly Known As Tim
i am not happy. i want to go back to fifteen years ago. you know i used to be so damn independent?
but with others making decisions for you, you don't have to use emotion...you just follow what they say. in a way, it's safer. you all know emotion can kill.